Life is for living

Life is for living.
I never really knew what this meant until I knew.

I didn’t know I could be
🦋this content
🦋this confident
🦋this in love with myself

I know this feeling will only grow and deepen the more i choose to go down this path.

Growing up I hated alot of things, ecspecially anything that made me feel "pretty". I didnt want to be liked. I froze when I recieved any attention and then also hated myself for it.

I hated myself for alot of things.... and yet I never knew it.

Certain experiences from my childhood kept me stuck in a freeze state into my adulthood, frozen in time and I never knew... until I wasn't.

I found my safety in numbness, never feeling anything. I would throw myself into danger and laugh because its the only time I ever felt.

My journey into "unravelling" who I am  changed completely how I now relate to everything.

Everything has a finer quality, a deeper meaning.  My whole body reacts to smells, tastes, music, nature and people. I'm not numb, I'm alive!

This has been part of my journey and I am grateful for every part of it (including the hard bits) and its the reason I'm here doing what I love to do...